Grab Life By the Balls..

Its been about a month plus now since the MAD Campus Dodgeball League begun. I am part of KDU Ronins, which i am proud to admit is a really high spirited team which desires more than just winning but success in every possible way. We have gone from a high level approach to a total downfall as we have lost 3 consecutive matches in da last 2 weeks. We currently have 3 wins and 4 losses and our chances of finishing top in The Campus Dodgeball League this season seems pretty slim and because of that our morale is decreasing very very fast. Our team is full of excited players but the 4th lost of the season was too much too handle and we have to react fast.

I am now the newly appointed manager of the Team and i lost my first game incharged. I was so disappointed to lose 3-0 straight as i had full confidence to get the team back to winning ways. I don't know but i am going to find a way to break this curse and get ourselves prepared for future games especially this upcoming RAGE tournament taking place this Saturday and Sunday. Winner shall receive a prize money of RM5000 and many extras. KDU Ronins has sent 3 teams to assure a top 3 spot this weekend. the money won would give us enough to finally get us our long awaited Jerseys and some financial security to the club.

I am proud that we have gone this far together in the team and as team Manager i will bring back the joy and the spirit of warriors back to the team. This is only my first week and i hope my president would give me extra time to work on the team and myself especially. Well Wish me and the team all the best alright!

!!THANKS!!

I Am Meant To Be Alone Forever..

Its time i forget and forgive.Its time i move on completely as it is already 4 months now.She just broke up and i still don't feel happy or any sort of joy about it.Sure she did break my heart and just ditched me to be with somebody else.I always thought she loved me very very much but then i guess i am wrong. She'd rather be with somebody else so why cant I still face the fact that I’m unwanted and that’s it! But I cant I keep on lying to myself that she still wants me..haiz..Ive become nothing but miserable just falling out of a long relationship.She spent 4 months with somebody else and still it was enough to cover up my 1 year and 7 months with her.

Maybe I just am not good enough for anyone.Im just a disappointment to the whole family as Ive always been nothing but a trouble maker and a useless piece of junk. Besides parents, I am not needed among my friends because what good have I done? I have made more friends annoyed and sad that’s all I have ever done. And what have I ever done for Adelyn? I can stay thousands or millions of miles away from her but still I won’t stop loving her. I could wait a million years just for her but then I am so dumb to still wait for someone that doesn’t want me anymore. She’s made clear of it but yet I still don’t listen. Why am I such a thick head?haiz. I don’t know but am I stupid to try to comfort her after what she’s done to me? I don’t know?

Why do I forgive people that hurt me very easily?i forgive because I believe in second chances and I just know that everyone deserves to know that there’s always someone out there that always has their backs. Whether or not they feel better or secured I just wish I could be secured.I use to have Adelyn for every tear and laughter. But then eventhough she has broken up I’m still empty and searching for the truth. I just wished I can be rescued from this misery y someone that’ll love me forever and never leave me no matter what because ill never you.

Adelyn, I am always here to stay. I am always here for you when you need someone to love you. I truly love you, and I know your love isn’t the love you have for Yu Hung.I ache every day and night to love you but I should really start realizing that you have really given up on me. Maybe you have but I never did and probably never but I think I must if I really have to move on and let you go. What for do you keep something that isn’t true am I right?well whatever it is I am forever here for you. I will never be the one to leave you to to die.You may leave me to die but I will never do that to you and I swear. Take Care my Angel, I hope you’re alright.I will cure you every possible way I can do…

I am meant to be alone forever...

=Crash and Burn= part 1

Have you ever thought that the person would never leave you no matter what the cause and the cost is.She said that she would always love you and would always do anything for you.She always assured me that she'd never leave and always love me til the very end of time.Well,the answer to those questions would be "me".

Adel(Not real name) was my true love and still is, she was younger than me by a diffference of 3 years.We had no problems and the age difference was never a big deal as we started of great and it went really well.She was the kind of girl that you'd never find anywhere in this world.She was alwyas true and she never hid who or what she was.She'd always express the truth and that was one of the things i loved about her.

Adel was my first real and serious relationship although there were ONs and Offs but oh well almost everyone has that too. She was very clingy and had always been,although there were times i was on the verge on sounding her off,I held back myself.I listened to myself,my heart,I need patience with her as i really did and do love her still.She would be the boss almost alll the time wanting it her own way.And I'm not saying she was bossy but she was a leader in the relationship and i loved her leading it.I know its the opposite as its always the male leading but except this one.I let her lead when i could have but i loved her too much to be that leader as i wanted it to be just her and me and non of us to be dominant.

I was never a smart nor rich and niether a good looking guy but i loved her as much as i could and that bubble of love in me never bursted apart.It kept on growing til the day she left me without any hesitation.That bubble in me mightve burst but the love in me for her never stopped.I appreciate all that she's ever done for me but i wonder if she had appreciated me.

To be continued..

What Kind of World Do You Want

Everyday, I wake up with this big scary question bumping into my head when and where ever i wake up.This started to occur to me when i woke up on a very morning in a LA motel last year.I woke up realizing that I'd lose everyone and everything that I have got if i was ever to not care and appreciate them all. One person for me to be exact is my 1st true lover, she was and still the whole world to me. She taught me to dare when i would never have tried. Yea basically she was responsible for my change in heart and behaviour.I was this kid chasing a dream that was going no where and i was too blind to realize it but because of her i realized that i needed to get off the highway. how did that happen??

It happened when one peaceful night, after her big event with her whole family, she called me and without any hesitation just straight away forced to an end upon our tight relationship. It was a pain that you can't bare after 3-4 times having it happened to me. She had her reasons and they were good and respectable reasons but despite the fact that she kept on coming in n out of the relationship made me hurt more. She may have thought that i may get immune but the only thibng that i was immune was the hurtful words that kept coming out of her mouth but the pain kept on increasing n increasing and even til today it is still increasing.

The thing is I don't understand is why the hell do i keep on forgiving her??!Hell fucking Yea i do love her and that's why i keep on accepting her.But as the weeks passed i realized that if she wants to go,she can go and that's when i came to think properly and more straight.Why should i hold back myself and make myself miserable.I've come to realize that i don't want to lose myself just because of one girl. And that's why now i've got a full answer to my question.

What kind of world do i want?The kind of world where i can live my life without any worries and fear and most importantly from heartbroken disease.Ive had it as I want to fufill my old goals that i once threw away for her and me.I had to go and search for myself and the sad thing was having to apologize to myself. She may never know that I had togo through many obstacles for her but then she still still prefered the decision of leaving me.We are still clse friends now and slowly we'll break apart further and forget bout each other.Maybe she'd find a new boyfriend or maybe it would be just natural.Whatever it is, im now more prepared and now im aware of what's happenening around me.I don't want to go back down that old path again and right now i want to stay with me & myself before moving on again.When the time comes, I hope i'd do well for my friends,family and self.And this goes out to that special person.I love you...........

Trump University: Marketing 101 or The Edge??

Haha its been a few days now I've been reading on anything on the biz section of the newspaper til thick biz books such as "Marketing 101"..Well it may sound freaky but ive started to love reading finally..I gotta admit that it was boring at first reading about biz especially those boring stock charts but then i kinda got the hang of it..It made me think and it was as if a girl day dreaming about who to go to the prom with..lolz..The recession hasnmade my mind much more broader about the business world..Well i found out that it certainly isn't easy to get out of it but there are plenty of solutions..

Rumours has been circulating that during the middle of this year,the economy would bounce back a little but not much..That may sound good to some kids but i don't think so at all..Companies are still not going to be able to employ all those thousands of people in need of jobs..its strange actually on how all of a sudden a recession could occur after the last one that happened in the late 1920s..Well hyperinflation occured at that time and i guess we saw Europe totally the opposite of how it is today..However,I think that we should learn from this and especially those top guns like Ford, GM and etc..they should've been saving at an early point as a call for a Major economic disaster was going to occur..It maybe to late to regret but then save your tears and why not rebulid..I say at this time its a gd time to to build up but only if you had been saving..Probably, Donald Trump would be buying all those not so high priced bulidings now and turning them into World class Hotels or maybe expand it into a multibillion Tower..Who knows what's next..A tower on clouds?? I don't really know to be honest but i've got to say this..Stop wasting time and lets get to work..Lets go fight this economic war..There's no waiting in this cause this aint the Cold War.Its what i call the Modern War..We should gear up and get ready to go..All the best to you all..

Stranded in my own head..

Have you ever wandered on what would happen to you if you failed your final exams and that you can't make it to college??Well,Its happenening to me everyday,hour,minute and second.I'm not being negative or what but I'm just wandering and completely lost.I am afraid that i won't make it but I'm more afraid that i wouldn't make it tomorrow and every other tomorrows.Its not just about not being able to enter college but also everything else.I just have this sickening feeling that I'm gonna lose everything and everyone.Maybe slowly n painfully or maybe not enough to be able to fix it.I feel so lost inside my own head that I can't think nor see what's next that i got to do.Those feelings are turning into visions and it aint pretty.I'm trying to put hope into myself but everytime i try to something just keeps pushing me back.I actually don't know what im afraid about.I don't know what im actually thinking about.I don't know what i am doing.I don't know what am i to do.I am stranded in my own head.Just waiting but not so patiently.Its on the verge of destroying myself.Its eating me up bit by bit and I'm letting it...wait..bye bye..

"Shop til you drop!"

Yo!I juz came bak from da States.Wowie I sure am exhausted after that 20 hr flight and damn its great to be home.Well states was really cold,it got colder n colder everyday,and so did the Sales there.They even came up with names for it,for example,"Shop til you Drop!",I know its not so catchy or great but it showed how crazy the Shopping malls n stores were flooded with hundreds and thousands of crazy customers all pushing n cramping with no mercy just because of a shoe or a bra!It was actually fun to watch them shop which included my parents.It was like watching fishes in a fish tank racing n eagerly gobbling up those small unfilling fish flakes.Mom and Dad was one of those crazy customers that stayed in every shop for atleast three hours.I wasnt suprised about mom doing that but i almost got a shock of my life that dad teamed up with mom this time.And you know how much both of them spent altogether?They spent about $18,000!!Dad's the one who'd usually grumble about wasting on so much on this and that but i think this time i was the one grumbling.I had to spend outside every store for hours just to wait for them to finish,plus it was super cold n i almost had my nose bleed n almost frozen!And im not shitting you!Well,This year's trip to the U.S wasnt a holiday but a shopping spree for mom and dad.And you know what was hilarious?Mom and Dad shopped til they dropped..haha..Merry Christmas everyone and a Happy New Year to all!!

Ciaoz

What Happened??!

I dunno what has juz happened.Ive been gone for only a week but problems had been created n piling over one another.Ive been sick for da last few days n now juz oni healing little by little.BUT the main problem n choatic thing that happened was that Adelyn was admitted to the hospital n it was all bcoz of me!I missed her birthday!!Ive hurt her!I dunno what the fuck i did wrong!!I dunno what to do now.I dunno..Im feeling so fucked up.i cant believe it that she missed me so so much dat she was admitted to da hospital n now she's hurt bcoz she misses n needed me.Im an asshole ok.A fucking faggot n no good biatch.She even thinks i cheated on her coz i took a few photos with my friends which are girls.But i nvr cheated k.I dun blame her not loving me anymore.I blame myself.N im gonna make her happy.When i come bak im gonna do smth daat she'll b happy for da rest of her life.It is....

I miss my Baby Lyn :(

Holla!!Holla!!Howdy do??haha..In skool right now..schools gonna end soon..haih ..Today is like da first time dat our class nvr learned everything..Exams r nearby n yet we are still playing around..Today was like just a free lepak day in skool..lol..Haih..nth to say la actually..Im damn bored n F-up right now..Me n Rich ditched the BM Seminar haha..Later im gonna go to zaq's house for tution..And i wonder what's gonna happen..hmm what are we hvin for dinner at zaq's place..haha..His mom makes really great dishes especially some dahl curry thing she made a few weeks back..I was madly in love with it..hahahaha..oh damn!!The Bell Just rung..Gotta ciao aite..i might post again tonight..Depends aite..Ciaoz!!!!

Haha..Grace took a pic of me after Playing football during lunch ystrday..lol..I know its ugly lol

Hey Hey Hey!!!

Yo people!!How are ya'll doing??Im back again..yeap im totally bak..lol..I dunno what to say though but it feels gd to be bak..Sorry dat ive not updated my blog for months,I just got busy all of a sudden haha..Well im still bz though coz my final exams are comin up nxt week..Well,currently ive got nothing to say really but just this..I LOVE YOU ADELYN LEE HO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hehe me n bi Cam whorin..Love her lots!!

Yer!Lol..Sorry i destroyed a beautiful pic,Bi :(

Hey there guys help me pls.Juz click on all the Ads pls..Tnx

Im too ugly.. :'(

I got a question for you baby..If i had an accident or whatsoever and then my whole face got burned and it looked like the opposite of Wu Zun..would you still love me like how you love me now???? :'(

A poem to my Sweetheart..I miss you baby...I mIss you so much..I NEED YOU!!! :'( this poem is for you Baby.. :'(

I love you more than all the stars in the sky.
I love you more as each moment passes us by.
I love you more with every breath I take.
I love you more with each promise we make.

I need you like a flower needs the rain.
I need you for you can wash away my pain.
I need you more each day
I need you for you are so wonderful, in every single way.

I miss you more than ever now.
I miss you because I really need you somehow.
I miss you and your touch.
I miss you for to me, you mean so much.

I want you to caress my lips the way you always do.
I want you to look into my eyes and see my love for you.
I want you to hold me close to your heart.
I want you to know that I love you, need you, miss you, and want you
And I have for every single moment, right from the start.

~My one and only..Forever my everything~

I will always love you Baby Girl..Take care of yourself k..Please do.. I'll Always be there for you :'(

Step And Feel the Xound!!

To my sweetheart...

Dear sweetheart,
How are you?I hope you're doing better without me.I just need you to know how much you've shaped me into someone better,someone that i thought i wont ever be.You made me dared..You made me strive..You made me..Its hard to let you go alright..I really love you and since the first time i layed eyes on you it was only heaven that i saw..And til this day it still remains that way..Everyday i always wanna be with you coz u are my all..My everything..Basically, my whole life revolves around you..Its like i pray to God everyday hoping to wake up alive and be able see you,hear your voice and most of all be there with you..Although its kinda the end for us we're friends forever k.Make sure the next guy that you get would love you k..and make sure you have him the way you want him k..And trust me k..Hotness isn't everything ..trust me k..Take care and someday if we dont get to see and talk to each other anymore..Just dont ever forget me k...I promise to repay you for everything ok..Take care..I promise you..That you''l l always be my everything..



P.S: Don't ever tell me if you have a new boyfriend ok.

Love,
Sharol